Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Alone & NOT so UnHappy

After a long day at work, I rarely feel the urge to go out, call up friends, or meet new people. Cooking a nice dinner for my family while watching a light-hearted show is more than enough for me. I don't rely on others for happiness; I find contentment within myself. I'm perfectly happy winding down, taking care of my responsibilities, and enjoying my interests without needing anyone else's approval. It's taken years, but my phone rarely rings, and people don't drop by or call to meet up—and I'm okay with that. I don't make it a priority to regularly meet up with others.

How did I get to this point? I learned to stop trying to be someone I'm not and just embrace who I am. I love making people laugh and am generally open-minded and kind. I don't necessarily dislike anyone, but I can be quite blunt, deep, observant, and a bit snarky. Most importantly, I've realized that when I mingle too much, I can get sidetracked into negative behaviors like gossiping, which only leads to trouble. I've tried to change, but my thinking often clashes with others', so I've accepted these traits as part of who I am and live my life accordingly.

I'm happy being alone; minimal human contact brings me peace. There are no expectations, desires, hopes, or obligations. I feel free, at peace, and find comfort in solitude.