Alone & NOT so UnHappy

After a long day at work, I rarely wish to go out or call up friends or meet up with people.... cooking a good meal for dinner for my family while watching a mindless show is enough for me . I dont need others to make me happy I just need myself to make me happy . I am happy just to wind down, take care of my responsibilities, enjoy the things that I am into (without anyone else's approval required), ponder life, and not feel guilty about it.  It's been years in the making, but my phone no longer rings and people don't stop by or call to meet up and that is fine with me.  I just don't take the initiative to meet up with them with any sort of regularity.  How did I get this way?  I figured out how to stop trying to be something I'm not and just be myself.   I love to make people laugh and am open-minded and kind to all the people in general .  Don't necessary hate anyone BUT, I can be very blunt, deep, observant, & snarky. Most importantly I found out , If I mingle with people I can get side tracked and start back biting which is highway to a whole new battle ground nothing good ever comes out of that! I have tried to change, but my thinking usually seems to clash with people.  So I just accept these traits as the way I was made and live life accordingly. I am happy to be alone and minimal human contact is peaceful there are no expectations there are no desires or hopes or obligations.... I feel free at peace and I find comfort in being alone !